I Am My Beloved's

Yes, I am engaged. I'm so unbelievably happy at this moment and have been on this high since Thursday. It was an amazing event that was created out of the spontaneousness and genuineness that is Rachel and my relationship. I am working on my version of the tale that lead to engagement, so be patient it is coming and will probably be big (let me also take this moment to apologize for the future sappiness of this blog, it'll last for a while but I am sure that this shall pass in time :) ). Until then, be satisfied with my fiance's beautiful version that sums up the actual day very nicely. A date hasn't been set as of yet but that is also in the works. Rachel has dived into the wedding planning keeping me busy answering questions and giving opinion (I'm sure this is just the start of the mad rush to the altar). It's great though, I'm not complaining. As a side note, I'm job searching like crazy while trying to find that right fit (BTW, I've decided against that Kansas City job, amongst a myriad of reasons but noteably not wanting to leave Rachel).

Not to leave you totally hanging without some more substantial to read, I found an amazing thing today. It was something I wrote at the beginning of 2004, a little bit after I had met Rachel but quite some time before we started to date. I barely remember writing it but it sums up this moment so incredibly well and I think a testament to the goodness of God. Here it is:

My Thoughts For and of You: I will wait.

I can see you. you are there. Even though I lose sight of you from time to time, I know you are ever getting closer by the desire that wells up in my heart pushing me, guiding me, motivating me, and compelling me to find you. Sometimes I find a part of you in another person, but it is only a shadow, a wisp of things to come. It discourages me at times to only find fragments, but knowing that you could be around the corner, or nearer yet, encourages me to not give up hope. I trust in my God that he has you on a path that will merge together with mine soon and I pray until that time that you remain safe, that you remain patient, and that you remain in His constant care and blessing. The idea that you are out there, praying for me too, is a wonderful thought. We are both searching, at this very moment in our lives, and we will find what we seek in God’s time. Until then, I will continue to wait for you. I look forward to the time that I can show you this after a long and wonderful journey of getting to know you. I know it’ll be beyond anything I could have asked for. More then anything, I look onward to that wonderful moment when I stare into your beautiful eyes and am able to tell you, “I’ve set myself apart for you. You are the one I will spend the rest of my life with and I look forward to every moment, from the wedding, to having kids, to growing old. I love you, now and always.”

“I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.” Song of Solomon 2:16